Venting the pent up!

hey guys,m back..

hope someone missed me..i havent been able to check on anyones post and m sorry haven been able to tlk 2 u my sweet pallu..but maybe i needed this distance to reassert myself(moreover,i had no access to the internet,so its mostly this case heehee)

so today m writin for no definite reason but just to touch that sensitive part of myself which i think i have lost in this blur of competition.to remind myelf that i do have a brain that can think rather than emulate and imitate..to realise the importance of not losing myself in all this repetition..and just to b here..where i can write whatever the hell i want...

describing my lapse period,i would say that starting afresh at a new place was a good idea..i really got up from my ass and started living again(rather than sittin and lamenting all day long )..i made a couple of new friends,found some old ones back..enjoyed the sun warming my face in this cold beautiful winter..and felt the chill to the bones,draped in a saree at my cousin's wedding..

al in all a new avtar..but this stupid heart..it belongs no where but here..it would love nothin more than penning down my thoughts(however insignificant they may be) on my blog...and so it craved and craved..till 2nite..

i even had a couple of crushes(brand new****)both on my teachers,who unfortunately are married and one of them have kids too..crashed a wedding(well not so mch crashed,bt it was of somene i din knw..a fren's fren's sister's)...shopped till i was breathless..ahem..m i sounding girly??what the heck..i am a GIRL!

now coming to the venting of my emtions..well to be frank..there havent been any..i truely have mastered the art of pasting the plastic smile on my face..and sometimes,the illusion of being happy makes me happy too..i dont give myself enough time to think of whatever happened,or whatever is going to happen..

but sometimes,it is hard,because life would never always be this happy-go-lucky...and i wish i wouldnt meet anyone who showes this stark realiy to my face..but then at every new turn of my life God has this miraculous way to show me tht all i did was to move in a circle,and again i would b back to sqaure A..jst frm where i bloody started!!

i severely hope im not making any sense..because i dont want to..since this is somthing im wary to pen down as well..just waiting for a realese through the 'tap-tap' of my fingers..want the negative to leave my body for a while..and to derive positives from my own words..


"sundry the moment,my throat is clogged,
the past does not wish to pass,
cold and clammy my hands feel,
but still...i wont let a tear befall..."

I was a crappy teacher!!

dnt ask me wat reminded me of this..and i've kept my blog pretty free of poopy stuff..but it kept me in bouts of laughter..

last to last year i was puttin up in a Pg wid two grls who were frm an arts background..so one day i was tellin them about Newton'n law of gravitation...of course they would hv known it..bt u see i wanted them to never forget what it was..

so my question to them was:

"when ur sittin on a pot,y does ur shit always go down ...??"

hehehe..o boy...they were so dumbfounded..

and asked

"u mean it might come up???"

hahahhahahaha...i was laughin helplessly at their stunned faces..bt i cud see they were givin it to my laughter..

"and that my friends...Is the miracle of Gravitation"

yeah i knw..im a crappy teacher...but im sure they are never ever gonna forget NEWTON and his Gravity:) :) :)

P.S.Miss u Khubbu n paddy..we sure had loads of fun..all m left wid are these crappy memories..to make me smile..

Out of hibernation mode!

hmm i wudn exactly call it hibernation,but wud term it as an isolation from all the gadgets of my life-referring to my laptop,internet,cellphone.i thot i'd revrted to sainthood,renouncing all these worldly pleasures.embark upon all that the deadly electricity cuts we are havin here..there was renouncement of a.c.,microwave,television as well.and wen the inverter went beep blop bzz..there went the lights and the fans too...well so this is how people used to live in the ancient dayz...i tried to imagine what they did the whole entire 24 hours of the day!!!!

no,i left it at dat..u seem to lose all imagination when ur dying of heat..so i tried to live through my sainthood with things i love the best..books!!!
heres a list:

1.catcher in the rye- a qoute 'I swear sometimes I think I'm crazy,surrounded by these goddam princesmaking out like life's perfect and all.That kills me.'
i loved it..and it killed me too.

2.english as a second language-a breezy novel about a girl who sets off to persue a masters course in english just to show her ex.a light read,cute and funny..and terribly girly..oooh hibernation is lovely

3.the hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy-thanx to pallu,i decided to read this mindboggling book of infinite surprises..hilariously crazy..okay,i think douglas adams is the smartestass in the universe,even smarter than the mice!!;)

4.i even read an M&B's novel..dat shows the heights of my desperation..i think sainthood is for the saints,regretfully,m not one!!...no m too embarassed to name the book..skip to the next one

5.ok its name was the bloody love-child watsoever!!

6.and then i found brida..someone who's a paulo coehlo fan like me wud luv it..so naturally i did..

by then my madness was subsiding and i was casually being smitten into the present digital gatget world...so i watched a couple of movies..still no contact with the outside world..my forest can have a video with sum books cant it?

1.The persuit of happyness-this movie is definitely going as my favourite after forrest gump...its just beautiful.and will smith is brilliant in this movie,especially since his son is in there wid him too.no more words.simply beautiful.

2.johnny english-ok if ur a mr bean fan u'll love this flick..and its a perfect one to watch with a sibling,especially mine...hehe..we were laughing so hard by the end of it(though we have already seen this b4,still it manages to make us laugh)..so if ur younger one is as notorious as mine..this is one u could watch.

3.penelope-cute movie,a fairytale story.nice time pass.a girl who is born with the snout of pig is lookin for the true love that would break the curse and she'd turn normal.

so dats it..here i m again,snugglin up to my lappie..writin happily in the luxury of these gadgets i have come to love..but mind u a break now and then seems necessary..i would really like to go to a forest for reclaiming my life sometime in a car(modern gadget!)..and then i'd love to shoot pictures of the rising sun,the leaves,the grass,the monkeys,the flowers,all with the latest digi-cam(modern gadget!)...ok,i admit,im a techno-crazy lass...y invented the technology if u cant stay with it..have to bear the brunt of these inventions now(gladly,sigh!)