A tashte of India

okkay..so dis is my cousin and his frens dooin fulltoo masti on a trip ...its difficlt to point out wich one he is..bt the one who's holdin the cam in the dhaba is the one...
yenjoyyy!!

10 things i hate about you nallu

1.i hate the way u always complement me,no matter how much i criticize u.

2.i hate that u always know when something is wrong with me.

3.i hate the way u bring out my tears whenever i meet u after a long time.

4.i hate the way u just sit and listen to me patiently when m barking my head out at u.

5.i hate the way u make me feel so so guilty after a fight,and make me run to u.

6.i hate the way u make me dance like a woman posessed.

7.i hate that u know and understand every thing i feel

8.i hate this need to talk to u whenever anything happens,good or bad.

9.i hate that u are so far apart n still manage to make me cry now.

10.and hate hate hate that i miss u so much..that i feel so incomplete without you..that u are the only one who knows everything about me..that without u i feel n arm and leg missing...
and i hate that bus driver who was right "what the hell would i do without u if i ever get married??"and that saleem saloon owner who said to u "ur friend cant bear to lo live without u a second???"

i hate it all...

PS..this is nell..aint she beeeeeeyuuuutifullll???

Ode to the 'bai'

When in the morning the kaamwaali bai asked me.."beta school ki chhutiyaan hain??" dat ws her indirect way of askin me what the hell m doin these days always at home...
i cant say hw extremely elated i felt..teeheeeeheee..

c'mon at least SOMEONE mistakenly thought i ws in school..whos to tell her i've finished college even

moreover..have been so worried about all this growing up process and being responsible lately..

i ws always a skinny grl,and people assumed me 2 b in a lesser grade than i usually ws..i looked young..bt nw,all this increase in my weight,on a grl of my frame,dats 5'6"...i think i look lyk a giant(not dat i really look lyk one,dats my FEELINGS entirely)

and all this had been giving me worrying lines underneath my eyes..hmmmmpppfff!

bt not today...ooh i love this feeling..i now know why older women always tell their wrong age..the youth will always b a wonderful time..we will always miss these glorious dayzz...at least i would..

and i had experienced this same feeling,like last year,when a boy had stopped me on the road and recited his heart to me...mmmfffmmmfff..(dis is my muffled laugh)..

i had stopped his recital midway and asked"what exactly do u do??"(he really did look young)

and he replied"i study,m in frst year of college"

oww c'mon

and then i told him"look boy,i've cmpleted my grad ages ago..m old enuff to b ur mom,get losst"

he had luked at me wid so mch disbelief and bewilderment!!hahahaha

ohh...so let me gloat today..

and dear kaamwaali aunty

"yu made my day;)"

my feelings exactlyyyy!!

This is a follow up to the world of pink fluffy clouds;)







I was nurtured I was sheltered
I was curious and young
I was searching for that something
Trying to find it on the run
Oh and just when I stopped looking
I saw just how far I'd come
In this life
In this life

You give me love
You give me light
Show me everything that's been happening
I've opened up my eyes
Following
Three steps fight an honest fight
Two hearts that can start a fire
One love is all I need
In this life

I have faltered I have stumbled
I have found my feet again
I've been angry I've been shaken
Found a new place to begin
My persistence to make a difference
Has led me safe into your hands
In this life
In this life

You give me love
You give me light
Show me everything that's been happening
I've opened up my eyes
Following
Three steps fight an honest fight
Two hearts that can start a fire
One love is all I need
In this life

I was put here for a reason
I was born into this world
And I'm living and I'm believing
I was meant to be your girl
In this life

You give me love
You give me light
Show me everything that's been happening
I've opened up my eyes
Following
Three steps fight an honest fight
Two hearts that can start a fire
One love is all I need
In this life

The world of pink furry fluffy clouds!!

sometimes i wonder if its jst me whos this hopelessly crazy about a fairytale life or is there other people out there like me too.who believe in sch things as true love and happily ever after.not dat i need many bt i jst wish there ws some1 out there who wud know wat it feels like to b a part of this cynical reality,this hope against hope dat soulmates exist and dat i will find mine in this lifetime.

because i jst knw dat i cant live with pretence,because i think dat is what i hv been doing my whole life.i hv pretended to b a perfect daughter,a perfect friend,a perfect student..but deep down i knw its all a farce.i havnt been perfect at all...maybe everything i ever wanted was something what they wanted,my family,my friends..i wud devise new ways to please them.bt as i grew older,the desire to please lessened,and i turned into me.someone who could easily break hearts,ignore tears,tell lies without the bash of an eye...some kind of a monster woman..brash,unkind,uncaring..

bt i think thats what life does 2 u..it teaches u how to live...it teaches u to take ur head out of the furry pink clouds and see hw everyone is out there to use yu,a little slip and u can fall headlong..so a hopeless romantic like me is unleashed onto a world like this and what do u get...as the sayin goes'when in rome..and blah blah'.

and nw m on this planet where all u get to knw while growin up is how to slit the throat of the person sittin next to u,cuz by God,its competition..and hw to make friends and leave them at the altar of ur career,cuz its wat they'd do 2 u anyway..and how to catch the right guy who'd better b a good husband material,and if not,he shud b carrying shitloads of money.WTF!!!

and i'd b damned if i care about all dat..i could never choose a friend for me,or as a matter of fact a guy..they jst came along and stuck..and got unstuck and rolled away..and sometyms,when they stuck for too long,i had to distance myself...all for my career..i needed to b focussed,they made me look at the fun side of life,and then thats is all pink furry clouds again!!we cant have that can we???

so i turned out to b this multi faceted personality who is jst whiffs away frm madness...my friends notice in me an occasional outburst of friendliness,love,warmth...and at other times,im as away frm their lives as i might never hv been there!!!and at those moments of hiding in my shell,i prepare myself to go again in that ugly masked world...

and im all well till i talk to my pals again.who are the epitomes of GOD i think,they turn me back into the frizzy jello-kinds mushed up grl who thinks life is full of pink furry fluffy clouds...

and with my head in those clouds i find everything beautiful..

my life gets alight with the beautiful moments i share with each n everyone of them,even if they are complainin or scolding me for disappearing,its nice,it shows they care.
and it makes me believe in fairytales and happily ever after again...

so here im thinkin of exactly the same thing with sucha random chain of thoughts,being crazy enough to even write about that.

i suppose its tym to go back into d shell again,its too much mush for nw..

in the end i want to thank my Gods,who make me believe in being happy

nallu-i love u grl.if i were a guy,i'd hv definitely married u!i dnt think i can find myself someone better,or even lyk u.i miss u sweetheart.

chotu-i no u'll cmplain dat i had d tym to write on dis stupid blog than call u,bt i had to.to say dat i miss u.miss our fights,and fights and fights.i think u get d idea;)

goldy-i had been sucha bad frend leavin u like dat,bt u were there for me wen i needed smone badly.and nw as its sch a joyous time of your life,i wish u all the happiness in the world.

and pallu-i knw we've recently found one another bt i feel like i've known u all my life.thanx for being such a wonderful person that u are.

all of u have in some way touched my soul,and made me find beauty in this ugly world.knwing u guys,i've found God,and the faith that i will find true love.but i will need ur blessings for that;)

Out of hibernation mode!

hmm i wudn exactly call it hibernation,but wud term it as an isolation from all the gadgets of my life-referring to my laptop,internet,cellphone.i thot i'd revrted to sainthood,renouncing all these worldly pleasures.embark upon all that the deadly electricity cuts we are havin here..there was renouncement of a.c.,microwave,television as well.and wen the inverter went beep blop bzz..there went the lights and the fans too...well so this is how people used to live in the ancient dayz...i tried to imagine what they did the whole entire 24 hours of the day!!!!

no,i left it at dat..u seem to lose all imagination when ur dying of heat..so i tried to live through my sainthood with things i love the best..books!!!
heres a list:

1.catcher in the rye- a qoute 'I swear sometimes I think I'm crazy,surrounded by these goddam princesmaking out like life's perfect and all.That kills me.'
i loved it..and it killed me too.

2.english as a second language-a breezy novel about a girl who sets off to persue a masters course in english just to show her ex.a light read,cute and funny..and terribly girly..oooh hibernation is lovely

3.the hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy-thanx to pallu,i decided to read this mindboggling book of infinite surprises..hilariously crazy..okay,i think douglas adams is the smartestass in the universe,even smarter than the mice!!;)

4.i even read an M&B's novel..dat shows the heights of my desperation..i think sainthood is for the saints,regretfully,m not one!!...no m too embarassed to name the book..skip to the next one

5.ok its name was the bloody love-child watsoever!!

6.and then i found brida..someone who's a paulo coehlo fan like me wud luv it..so naturally i did..

by then my madness was subsiding and i was casually being smitten into the present digital gatget world...so i watched a couple of movies..still no contact with the outside world..my forest can have a video with sum books cant it?

1.The persuit of happyness-this movie is definitely going as my favourite after forrest gump...its just beautiful.and will smith is brilliant in this movie,especially since his son is in there wid him too.no more words.simply beautiful.

2.johnny english-ok if ur a mr bean fan u'll love this flick..and its a perfect one to watch with a sibling,especially mine...hehe..we were laughing so hard by the end of it(though we have already seen this b4,still it manages to make us laugh)..so if ur younger one is as notorious as mine..this is one u could watch.

3.penelope-cute movie,a fairytale story.nice time pass.a girl who is born with the snout of pig is lookin for the true love that would break the curse and she'd turn normal.

so dats it..here i m again,snugglin up to my lappie..writin happily in the luxury of these gadgets i have come to love..but mind u a break now and then seems necessary..i would really like to go to a forest for reclaiming my life sometime in a car(modern gadget!)..and then i'd love to shoot pictures of the rising sun,the leaves,the grass,the monkeys,the flowers,all with the latest digi-cam(modern gadget!)...ok,i admit,im a techno-crazy lass...y invented the technology if u cant stay with it..have to bear the brunt of these inventions now(gladly,sigh!)